Thought Lists and Botox

I want to share with you what it's like for me to get the Botox treatment. It's time. Here are some of the feelings that I felt in the first half hour.

Immediately after my Botox shots -

• giggly
• tilty
• light-hearted
• light headed
• hopeful
• anticipitory
• not so good with the brain
• slurring 
• mixing words
• sounding drunk 
• floaty

4 hours later, however, I've added -

• anixious
• wistful
• dizzy
• vertigo-ish
• still hopeful
• more grounded
• sluggish blood
• weighty
• reflective
• remembering
• too much feeling, not enough words
• hard to write
• want to write

 This is only my second treatment, but so far the differences between this and last time that I've noticed are:

• not as dramatic a drop in pain
• injection spots more tender
• I'm calmer than the first night last time
• I'm not feeling as in the dark
• I feel a little more well versed in what to expect

I'm glad I've done the second treatment because:

• I know that it can take up to four treatments to get the full benefit.
• the idea of low(er) pain is much less foreign to me.
• I can imagine how acute migraine sufferers could feel frustrated with the lack of knowing.
•  it shows that I'm going to do everything that I can to try and make myself a person not a patient. 

To those of you who are or may be considering Botox for yourselves, remember that I am only one case. I am an example of a possible reaction, not a guarantee or a dismissal. I would recommend Botox if the you are going to be willing to accept that it most likely will take up to a full calendar year to know if this will work, and if it does, that it isn't a silver bullet. As I understand it, if the Botox works, you will need to keep it up for the foreseeable future. 

Other than that, I'm not yet qualified to say.